i hate people and i’m so awkward socially

I dont need anybody i was alone all my life..
Im not happy at all
Im not happy I AM ... I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK AM I..
I want to die:S
nobody gonna miss me anyways e.e...
I want to be alone i really want to be alone
so tired of this .. im so tired :S i dont know what to do im so lost in here
I feel so much pain inside me..
i WANT TO FEEL that feeling again.. =/
im so fucked up..
i realy want some alcohol rite now..
yes is not a solution but is funny..
I DONT KNOW.
i hate TO FEEL THIS
-where has my heart gone?
I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.. - A.L